This is life?

Dear Readers (Pst are there any readers out there?),

I have been feeling very self analytical today. I have decided that I am not worthy of being a Potter Sister, mostly because my knowledge of Harry Potter seems very small compared to Sarah's infinite wisdom of all things wizardly and Harry Pottery....yes pottery... it makes sense so shut up.
Any way that's me being lame.
Now to me being normal. So Sarah will not have a cool blog of me and her from today to post, whenever she does post it.
Why?
Well because I didn't go to church tonight. I can't find any joy outside of my friends in that church anymore. After growing up at my church and knowing how good it used to be, it just kind of makes me hate what it's become. Which leads to a dislike of the people who help get it to where it is now. My church used to be based wholly in spirituality, which detracted a bit from our numbers because it kind of exposed the people playing the church game. For a good while the fog of humanity had been lifted. Then we got a new pastor, who is extremely good in his Texas ways, who has made our church into a face. The youth group is now a face. That's thanks to our Georgian youth pastor with the same ideals as our pastor. Now it's wonderful that we have so many people to share the word of God with, but it's at the expense of our spirituality. Everything is so distracting now. People are so separated into little groups, I feel like I don't know half the people I grew up with and introduced into the church anymore. My loving society is crumbling. My haven from the world is turning into the very world I am hiding from.
I just want to know, when will it stop?

Love, Kara